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happier alone, fuck you
02:21
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i don't expect that you're gonna write me back after this, after this
i miss when i couldn't wait to be alone to reminisce about a kiss
thought i could handle it the first time through
i've got no power when it comes to you
i don't want a love that doesn't want to love me too
but i'm happier alone, thank you
it's hard to say if things can ever be the same after this, after this
a lesson learned, don't expect a big return. call it quits, i'm over it
thought i could handle it the first time through
i've got no power when it comes to you
i don't want a love that doesn't want to love me too
but i'm happier alone, thank you
oh i'm happier alone, thank you
i'm happier alone, fuck you
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proximity
04:03
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does distance make the heart grow fonder
or does distance just mean that you're farther
you want what you can see
your hands touch what they can reach
we're just creatures of proximity
i think i read once that monkeys don't care
about other monkeys unless they're there
they've got community
some daily company
don't pine for what they cannot see
they're just creatures of proximity
i'm not saying i've got thicker skin than you
i just know i stopped all my looking after you
and i don't know why we keep playing pretend
we both know it's complicated
my stomach hurts when i think about it
and i can't sleep, my heads too crowded
you want what's best for me
i think that's what you mean
i hate it selfishly
cause we're creatures of proximity
i'm not saying i've got thicker skin than you
i just know i stopped all my looking after you
and i don't know why we keep playing like we're friends
we both know it's complicated
we both know it's complicated
we both know it's complicated
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anymore anymore
03:11
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there's a hole that lives inside of me
it feels like it might swallow me
i don't wanna fight it off anymore
i can't get you off my mind anymore anymore
we walked to the ocean and took off all our clothes to swim
it makes you feel so small, don't you agree
a tiny speck forgotten in mother earth's cavity
the stars are infinite above me
your cross sits miles in front of me
i'm an insect crushed so easily
this black hole might be small comparatively
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4. |
maladaptive daydreaming
03:59
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watched you leave me in your former place
satisfaction smeared along your face
you don't need me, i don't need you finally
i don't want this hanging over me
saw you moved out right across the road
heard she's cool and smarter than she knows
did she help you cut your boxes open too?
wish i'd never had the chance to know you
would you believe me if i said i miss you
do you believe me when i lie
what if i told you it's a moral issue
would that make it justified
nail your handmade paintings to the wall
keep your daydreams, matching retinol
i don't know the place that you call home anymore
every wish i made i know i'll pay for
would you believe me if i said i missed you
did you believe me when i lied
what if i told you it's a moral issue
would that make it justified
would you believe it if i didn't miss you
sorry about the times i lied
i've always known that i'm a moral issue
one day i'll be purified
alright
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5. |
pressure
03:48
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wish i wasn't stuck on why
i spend my days now in a high to forget it
it's the pressure building up behind my eyes
my old friend, i need it
saw you argue from your tower
tried not to check back every hours, it's not easy
cause i'm fading and i'm losing my power
i miss it, i need it
and i know this is a cycle
leaving chicago won't change anything
i know i'm in denial
but once in a while it gets through to me
watched the curtains exhalation
they join me on my exploration, we're all breathing
we're alive but i'm still stuck on the causation
i'm searching, i'm reaching
and i know this is a cycle
leaving chicago didn't fix anything
and i know cause i read the bible
but only denial and guilt followed me
i know i read the bible
but only denial and guilt followed me
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6. |
soda
04:02
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first time you had a sip you crinkled up your nose
but still you took another drink
we're getting older but it's all just dominos
we're drawn like insects to what's sweet
i like you better than the bed i sleep in
you give more than i'm comfortable receiving
your silence always was the most revealing
quit concealing what you're feeling
you're the wind in my wings
you're the gust in my sails
salivated when i see ya, you're ginger ale
you're a billowing breeze
crave you more than my smoke
cloyingly sweet, you're just like coke
i hope you know that you're soda
you're soda, you're so delightful
your only vice is frosted white confetti cake
i guess we really never change
i'm always caving for that hit of dopamine
you're my repeated sweet mistake
i like you better than the bed i sleep in
you give more than i'm comfortable receiving
your silence always was the most revealing
quit concealing what you're feeling
you're the wind in my wings
you're the gust in my sails
salivate when i see ya, you're ginger ale
you're a billowing breeze
crave you more than my smoke
cloyingly sweet, you're just like coke
you're a beam of the sun cutting through foggy gray
wish i could stop, you're tooth decay
you're the dust in my breeze
breathe you in and i'll choke
tried to consume your overflow
i hope you know that you're soda
you're soda, you're so delightful
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leaves
04:06
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i don't think i could spin it
i'm nearly drowning in it
thought i'd keep my head above the tide
i try but barely stammer
face white like arm and hammer
heavy feet and even louder sighs
everybody knows i'm a liability, a liar
two more days to go and then we'll see
run away and hide from me
wouldn't blame you anyway if you need the time to breathe
run away and hide from me
i don't want to live like that
i don't want a love that leaves
i see your smile falter downward into the water
darker depths decide who sees the sunlight
and if your mother knew it she'd do the same as you
at least that's what i'll say to get some sleep at night
everybody knows i'm a liability, a liar
two more days to go until we'll see
run away and hide from me
wouldn't blame you anyway if you need the time to breathe
run away and hide from me
i don't wanna live like that
i don't want a love that leaves
leaves change like chameleons
then they fall away and die
they'll be trampled, torn, and broken
while they feed the earth and sky
i'm scared to change sometimes
cause all the leaves that die
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8. |
class of '09
03:28
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you saw me skipping class
as you walked by me
you were really hauling ass
i found it surprisingly
charming to watch you run
down to history
with a hole in the knee of your jeans
in the cafeteria
i walked by your table
thought about stopping by
my legs weren't able
they wobbled away from you
why can't my body and my mind find a way to agree
i see you and everything will fall away
fall away fall away
but i know pretty soon you'll be far away
far away far away
you are a bomb that went off inside of me
and i don't ever wanna scrub my walls clean
stood by you at the game
and we bumped elbows
could've sworn you held yours there
our hands in the shadows
just twining like trumpet vines
searching for something to hold onto
a place in the sun
i see you and everything will fall away
fall away fall away
but i know pretty soon you'll be far away
far away far away
you are a bomb that went off inside of me
and i don't ever wanna scrub my walls clean
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magic
03:33
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blunted edge, flattery
i wander through a dark room
bruise my arm and hit my knees
on carefully spun half truths
ain't it magic when the sun drops lower
it's hard to see you're lying when the lights go lower
i don't know why you and i believe
fireworks inside my eyes
is there such a thing as darkness?
salty floods fall from the skies
an annual catharsis
ain't it magic when the sun drops lower
it's hard to see you're lying when the lights go lower
i don't know why you and i believe
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10. |
bad for me
03:58
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yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
you're so bad for me
but i can't get enough
i can't get enough, yeah
i'm mad for you
but you're bad for me
you only like me when you're lonely
you say you're lonely all the time
you make me feel like i'm the only
the only one you let inside your mind
yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
you're so bad for me
but i can't get enough
i can't get enough, yeah
i'm mad for you
but you're bad for me
i'm tryin hard to take it slowly
you pour your heart into my palms
you make me feel like i'm the only
the only one you see at all
yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
you're so bad for me
but i can't get enough
i can't get enough, yeah
i'm mad for you
but you're bad for me
time keeps going, we keep growing
i don't even know how we landed here
yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
you're so bad for me
but i can't get enough
i can't get enough
i'm mad for you
but you're bad for me
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